Wow...

Ok so I guess it has been a while since I updated. And it looks like I haven't since the end of March! LOL! Yes, I am THE WORST at updating. I've been going through some tough times lately. I don't think many know that I left Eric back in June for a few days. I stayed with a friend who now is no longer a friend. But that's a WHOLE different story and now is niether the time nor place. Anyways, I ended up going back and giving him another chance and have been trying to work things out ever since then. We had our 2 year anniversary and went to St. Augustine the weekend of Sept. 11 and that was a nice, much needed get away. I kind of felt as though it was a last attempt to try and rekindle things honestly. Whether or not he felt like that I don't know but I can tell you we had a HUGE fight the night before we left and things were not good. Well, now it's been almost 2 months and things were pretty ok after the trip, but I just felt everything is just going to go back to being the same like they always do.

So, in the mean time I've been working at the lovely Computer Associates Intl. being their receptionist. I've been lucky to have found a friend here that's actually a guy! AND he's never tried to *ahem* get any, or even hit on me. Turns out he was in the same situation I am until recently and asked me if I would be interested in being roommates. So I thought about it and decided OK, why the hell not right? So, him and I have been looking at places and checking stuff out here in the Brandon area. So when we find a pad, I can break the news....

EXCEPT, if something happens to piss me off like yesterday. He has pushed his shelf life to an even shorter ammount of time so now I am on the verge og an emotional breakdown/freakout. I was THIS close last night to ending it, but I didn't. So now all I can think about is getting the guts up to finally do it and that in itself is just fucking killing me. Yeah, I know I do have an attitude sometimes and can be quite the bitch, but I'm a kind hearted person that doesn't like hurting people. So, it is just a matter of time before I get fed up and leave. More than likely it will be within the next week, or hopefully. I just have to feel like I am ready and ready to go through with it, b/c it is a big big change that I will have to get adjusted to. So if that happens in the next week I'll be going to my parents until Jason and I find the place we want.

So, there's your update for now. Later alligator!

About me!

AH HA! See now Crystal I have 2 valid posts for today?!! Aren't you proud?!!

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?uhhhhhhh, Teresa on St. Patty's Day....ah good times
2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?I'd try my damndest LOL.......
3) Do you sleep with the TV on?NO, but unfortunately I'm stuck with a man that LOVES too
4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?well duuuuuh
5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?Ooooh I have
6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?YES! And it hurt like a mofo
7) How fast can you type?pretty fast I think
8) Are you afraid of the dark?nope
9) Eye color?blue
10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?HELL YEAH! (Lauren, you should try it!!! :P)
11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?when Eric had no hot water, that was like over a year ago
12) Do you knock on wood?all the time
13) Do you floss daily?no, but I should
15) Can you hula hoop?of course!
16) Are you good at keeping secrets?sometimes
17) What do you want for Christmas?to give, it's what I do best =)
18) Do you know the Muffin Man?on occasion I do, hehehe
19) Do you talk in your sleep?no, don't think so
20) Who wrote the book of love?who the hell knows
21) Have you ever flown a kite?why yes I have
22.) Do u wish on your fallen eyelashes?yeppers
23) Do you consider yourself successful?eh, not really.......wait, successful at what ;) hehehe
24) How many people are on your contact list of your cell?Oh, quite a few....prob about 60
25) Have you ever asked for a pony?uh, no those don't belong in Dover! Lol, j/k!
26) Plans for tomorrow?work......
27) Can you juggle?LOL, juggle what?! And no I can't
28) Missing someone now?Sure
29) When was the last time you told someone I Love You? this morning when I left for work I told Eric
30) And truly meant it?well yeah
31) How often do you drink?drink what??!!
32) How are you feeling today?fucking tired
33) What do you say too much?any and all bad words....they are my friend
34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?no sure haven't !!
35) What are you lookin' forward to next month? good question
36) Have you ever crawled through a window?YES....when you are 4'11" you always get stuck doing the dirty work37) Have you ever eaten dog food? LOL, okay do dog biscuits count? I was like 5 then........
38) Can you handle the truth?YES
39) Do you like green eggs and ham?Uh sure why not
40) Any cool scars?hmmm, not really. I have on of those neat "lead" scars from a pencil on my right leg that I've had since I was 7 LOL!

To appease Crystal...............LOL!

1. What is your Legal First name? Tiffany
2. Were you named after anyone? Uhhh, what do you think?!
3. Do you wish on stars? yep
4. When did you last cry? n/a
5. What is your favorite lunch meat? uhhh, turkey i guess
6. What is your birth date? 08-03-1982
7. What is your most embarrassing CD? well obviously if I have it I'm not embarrassed by it
8. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? but of course
9. Do you use sarcasm a lot? LOL no, no I don't 10. What are your nicknames? Tiff, Tiffers and anything refering to short
11. Would you bungee jump? sure
12. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no, for I am lazy
13. Do you think that you are strong? Yeah, especially when pissed
14. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? CHOCOLATE
15. Shoe Size? 7 16. Red or pink? Pink
17. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? that I'm always the baby, and the shortest, and I don't like my thighs either
18. Who do you miss most? that's a good question.....
19. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? sure why not
20. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? black and black
21. What are you listening to right now? mj morning show
22. What did you eat for breakfast? Coffee
23. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? periwinkle
24. What is the weather like right now? umm, little chilly hell I dunno I was outside for maybe 2 minnutes
25. Last person you talked to on the phone? Adam
26. The first things you notice about the opposite sex? why is it always the "opposite sex"....I always look at the ass on BOTH sexes hehehe ;)
27. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yep 28 Favorite Drink? Water and Coffee
29. Hair Color? red....natural color dirty blonde
30. Do you wear contacts? No
31. Favorite Food? chinese
32. Last Movie You Watched? Quills
33. Favorite Day Of The Year? yeah, I agree with Brandy...my birthday!! it better be good this year too! 34. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Scary!
35. Summer Or Winter? Summer!
36. Hugs OR Kisses? kisses.....they always lead to some other stuff MUUUAAHAHAHA ;)
37. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? absolutely anything chocolate
38. Who Is Most Likely To Respond? Donna
39. Who Is Least Likely To Respond ? Crystal duuuuuuuuh LOL
40. Living Arrangements? Currently living with the b/f
41. What Books Are You Reading? The Truth About Diamonds
42. What's On Your Mouse Pad? HA, LOL.....I have a generic Staples mousepad
43. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? hmm, don't remember
44. Favorite Smells? Vanilla , rain, homemade cookies
45. What kind of vehicle do you drive ? Purple Mercury Tracer
46. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Stones all the waaaaaay baby! WOOHOO =)
47. What's the farthest you've been from home? LMAO, Atlanta GA

Boredom.....

So here I sit at my "job" bored off my ass. You know what I've been doing since I got here at 8am? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I've been drinking some coffee and been on the computer. Talk about fun....wooooohooo!

Anywho, so what did everyone do for St. Patty's Day? If you did not celebrate in any way then you are not considered my friend LOL. I'm j/k! Well, Eric and I went to Bilmar. Or I guess it would be appropriate to now call it Hank's. Although, this "Hank" bought out Bilmar about 4 months or so ago, and the banner for Bilmar is still hanging in front of the doors LOL.....all the while the name "Hank's" is written in chalk on the sidewalk. Anywho, we got there about 8:00 and got our drink on. In fact, we got it on for quite a while as we were there for about 4, 4 1/2 hours. And I tried a new beer and liked it! Liked it so much I ended up drinking that kind all night, yes I was very proud of myself =D It was some wheat beer called "Erdinger" was not bad, not bad at all. So, we left there and of course in our drunken stuper we were STARVING, so we stopped by good ol Whataburger! YUUUUUMMMY! So Saturday we get up, Eric skips off to work and I get up to straighten the house b/c Donna is supposed to come over. YaY! So Donna comes over prob about noon, and guess what she brought???? A tray full of jello shots!! LOL! Oh I know I shouldn't have but I did, yes I did have a very slight hangover but I could not resist. She brought lots of fuzzy navel ones, and pretty blue ones but I didn't try those b/c she said it those were a bit too strong.

Anyways, to make a long story short, do not drink heavily 2 days in a row on little sleep. Not a good idea people. For when Sunday rolled around, I ended up with the fucking cold. I was supposed to go to a fish fry but I couldn't b/c my ass looked HORRIBLE. I couldn't be seen in public looking the way I did. And, I admit it's my fault and I've learned my lesson, although I think I say that everytime......oh well LOL. But now it's almost Friday and time to do the process all over again! No, I'm j/k....I'm too poor this weekend....but next weekend is a different story hehehe =)

LOST....

So I forgot to mention in my last post that Eric and I have become obsessivly addicted to the show LOST. This show fucking rocks people! Eric came across the pilot eppy on a few weeks back and I ended up watching some of it. Then, that weekend we were looking for something to do as it was a rainy weekend and we are poor folk lol.....so we went to Blockbuster and rented the entire first season. So we are now officially hooked, I have even created my own notebook with all kinds of shit (names, clues, events, numbers, and etc.). It's sickly LOL, I'll find myself sitting here thinking of possible story lines that could unfold and so forth. And that's why I like this show, it makes you think! IMO, It's not a show that's just mindless entertainment....it gets your brain churning! Anyways enough on that...

I went to a hockey game for the first time last night! It was ok, I will say though that you definately have to have some beer or alcoholic beverage of some sort in you if it's not your thing LOL. But, I did see a good fight! It was awesome! Especially since the ref tackeled a player from the other team :) Damn Canadian's! LOL, I'm sooo j/k!

You know it's time to update when.....

Crystal reminds you to! Lol, I'm j/k!

Well nothing all that new and exciting going on. I'm still working at this peice of shit job, and still struggling to find something that makes me feel like I'm actually doing something with my life. I am thankful though that I've found some good old friends of mine. I went almost 6 years being without any of my "own" friends....and not realizing that having friends can be quite healthy lol....you get what I'm saying.

I really don't have anything to write......Well, I could bitch about my sex-life, or lack there of would be a better wording but I don't think you want to hear about that soooooooo until next time...

Why? Continued......

Okay, so I have now come to the conclusion that guys really have NO fucking clue. And the ones that do have a clue, probably make up about 1% of the male population. WTF!!!!???!!! I'll tell you what I want when it comes to V-Day. A little thought put into something. IE: A nice drawn bubble bath w/candles, a back rub, a foot massage, a fucking letter expressing love and affection, a poem, maybe some cheesy fucking decorating around the house....something along those lines. Is that too much to ask???!! Or am I being selfish here? I mean here I am sending flowers, chocolates, a teddy bear, candy, and buying pretty little lingerie.......and so am I wrong for thinking that I would get something along those lines?! I just don't FUCKING GET IT! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDD! Then, what we're supposed to not get mad just b/c they are men, and aren't on our same "wavelength"! Fuck it's total BS.

Why?

This is for the ladies:

Okay, so Valentine's day was yesterday. Yippee! I love Valentine's Day. But what is it with this fucking day that makes us women get our hopes up. Hoping for something extra special or "nice". Personally, I don't expect tons of money to be spent on materialistic things. I mean, yes of course flowers are great.....even a single rose is fine. Candies....that's cool. A cute cheesy stuffed animal of some sort....that's awesome. But what is it we really want girls???? I shall continue this later on......

God this INFURIATES me beyond belief!!!

The littlest drug mules
Fiendish heroin lords sew smack into pups
BY JOHN MARZULLIDAILY NEWS STAFF WRITER

Cruel cartel smuggled heroin to U.S. INSIDE dogs

Some of the puppies which were found with packets of liquid heroin in their bellies.
Heartless international heroin smugglers turned cute puppies into drug mules - cutting open their bellies and stuffing them with packets of liquid smack, authorities revealed yesterday.
Cops in Colombia rescued 10 Labrador puppies - literal drug Labs - at a filthy, makeshift veterinary clinic where hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of heroin was surgically stitched into the cuddly couriers, who were being readied for trips to the U.S.
The dramatic animal rescue led to a year-long international probe that ended with the arrests of 10 Colombian nationals in New York, Florida and North Carolina, according to court papers unsealed yesterday in Brooklyn Federal Court.
"They utilized a wide range of smuggling, the most repulsive of which was the use of puppies," said Drug Enforcement Administration special agent-in-charge John Gilbride.
"I think it's outrageous and heinous that they would use innocent puppies this way," he added.
The reputed veterinarian who cruelly subjected the purebred pups to his cutting knife, identified as Andres Lopez Elorez, is believed to be a fugitive in Spain, said sources familiar with the case.
It is not known whether Elorez received any formal veterinary training, the sources added.
A tipster led Colombian national police to a farm in Medellin, where they found the lovable black and brown puppies living in squalor.
Six of the dogs had been implanted with 3 kilograms of liquid heroin - contained in plastic packets resembling intravenous bags - surgically hidden just under the skin, Gilbride said.
Three of the dogs died a short time later due to infections, apparently as a result of the surgery. The seven surviving canines are "alive and well," Gilbride reported.
Investigators believed heroin-carrying Labs were part of a scheme to smuggle smack into New York, for distribution along the East Coast.
The druglords also dispatched human couriers, who ingested heroin packets to New York and Miami as part of the multimillion-dollar ring, officials said.
Agents also seized heroin concealed in aerosol cans, body creams and sewn into the lining of purses and luggage.
One law enforcement official recalled a smuggling case several years ago involving a dog made to swallow narcotics, but the surgical method appears to be unique.
Customs and border patrol agents throughout the country have been alerted to the puppy-smuggling scheme.
"There have been cases of animal cruelty that have led to the discovery of drug labs, but not to the extent of an animal being used to carry drugs, especially a puppy," said ASPCA spokeswoman Jo Sullivan.

Originally published on February 1, 2006